Feeling sad

We lost the baby.

I don't know what to say about that just yet. It's devastating and heartbreaking.

I'll share more as I get a little distant from it and it doesn't flip me upside down to retell the story.

For now, I'll say that I'm feeling much better than I was when I was sick with preeclampsia. As much as my body feels better -- my blood pressure is down, my kidneys are working properly which reduces my swelling, and my body is slowly moving back to its normal self.

I'll also say that we received the best possible care at Northwestern's Prentice Hospital. We had amazing nurses, doctors and the best possible care during one of the worst times of our lives. We're very grateful for that.

We're heading into Thanksgiving weekend feeling thankful for our health, thankful for our amazing friends & family, and sad that we won't get to know this baby we were so excited to meet.

I'll write more later, but I wanted to pass along the news and to at least start to write out all the feelings floating in my head.